The Diagnosis That Changed My Life.
I sat down with Bold Journey to talk about the surprising — yet not-surprising-at-all — diagnosis that changed my life. How it sparked a profound journey of self-healing, how that journey led me to create The Art of Self-Healing — a course for anyone ready to turn inward, embrace their sensitivity, and reclaim it as a source of wholeness and heart. And how teaching, for me, is really unmasking — a bridge from isolation to connection, service, and love.
Read the full interview with Bold Journey below.
What are you being called to do now, that you may have been afraid of before?
I was recently diagnosed as AuDHD, and wow… that changes everything. Finally, I have the words, the context - a way to understand not just my gifts, but my struggles too. For so many years I lived split in two: showing only the polished parts, whatever I thought others wanted to see, too afraid to let my vulnerabilities show. Now I can finally stand in both.
It’s ignited a self-healing process that’s alive in me right now: I’m exhilarated, I’m grieving, I’m twisting and reshaping from the inside. And somehow, through all of it - I’m feeling so free! For neurodivergent people, self-healing isn’t just recovery - it’s revolution, it’s remembering that our sensitivity is not a flaw, but a brilliance, a truth, a power.
So here I am, “coming out". Speaking with honesty, self-compassion, and love. And because my life and work have never been separate - my work has always been my truth, brought into the world - I feel called to share this self-healing process with others: after years as a therapist, pouring my energy outward, I’m finally turning that same compassionate gaze inward - and what I’m uncovering… it’s too alive, too transformative, to keep to myself.
That’s why I created something deeply personal: The Art of Self-Healing. A course born from this journey. In it, I guide others into the discovery that the places we’ve hidden, the parts we thought were flaws, are often the most powerful sources of medicine.
I’ll leave the link below. This one means the world to me - and I hope readers will love it too.
And one more thing I’m feeling called to do: with this new diagnosis comes a new sense of identity, a new sense of belonging - and with that, a calling to serve my people in a clearer way.
My work has always resonated with those who feel the world intensely - the sensitives, the empaths, the healers at heart. But now, with this deeper understanding of myself, I want to serve my own people even more directly: the neurodivergent, the “neurospicy” tribe.
We’re so often misunderstood, stigmatized, written off. There’s so much trauma and pain. And yet - our gifts are extraordinary. We’re the seers, the truth-tellers, the healers of this world. I honestly believe we have an evolutionary role to play.
So yes, I feel called to serve us. Openly, proudly, with love. And this is just the beginning - I’ll be creating more for this community very soon. Stay tuned, my loves!
Can you briefly introduce yourself and what you do?
My name is il’il Sat Prem. I’m a teacher, a healer, a yogini. I guide people through mystical healing arts, Kundalini practices, and a body of work I call Healing in the Flow. I lead live, immersive trainings - guiding healers and teachers into the subtle, showing them how to perceive what’s usually invisible, and how to hold and heal with real depth. I create self-paced courses for those who want to explore at their own rhythm. And for those who are truly called, I work 1:1.
Who were you before the world told you who you had to be?
I was a deeply free child, engaged in an endlessly profound conversation with the world around me. Shadows shifting, the silences between sounds, unconscious currents - they were all louder to me than even the noisy streets of the hot Mediterranean town where I grew up.
I loved animals - my dog, my cats, the three crows who followed me around. I loved trees, flowers, art, and could lose myself in it all for hours. Every little thing whispered of something infinite. Watching, listening, absorbing - I felt part of something vast, mysterious, and alive.
At the same time, I was already a bit prematurely mature. I noticed people closely - their needs, their emotions, the things they didn’t say. I felt responsible, as if I had to hold them together somehow. Looking back, I was already a kind of healer. Innocent, wide-eyed - but quietly carrying something unspoken inside of me, a rhythm I didn’t yet know how to name.
What have been the defining wounds of your life — and how have you healed them?
The wounds that shaped me were never loud. They were quiet, invisible things. Being neurodivergent - with a nervous system that feels everything, all at once - in a world that didn’t understand, I learned to hide. On the inside, there was vast intensity. On the outside, I masked. I performed. I excelled. And little by little, I drifted away from my own soul.
Self-healing began when everything broke open. A spiritual crisis cracked me apart and led me to the healing traditions that now ground my life - Kundalini, breathwork, and the silent, mystical spaces that taught me to listen rather than perform.
When I finally turned inward - when I stopped running from my own intensity and met it with presence and love - everything changed. The inner world I once felt trapped in, revealed itself as a living field of energy and connection, and that’s where my work began: learning to use that awareness to perceive and transform trauma, emotion, and energy — and to help others do the same, both in person and through remote healing.
People often assume autistic people are detached or cold. My truth is the opposite. I’ve always felt so deeply, perceived so much. It just took time to find a way to share it all. Becoming a healer was more than a career - it was unmasking. A way to live my inner world out loud, turning sensitivity into service, connection, and joy.
And when I began training others in these mystical healing arts - guiding them through the collective field of awareness - another layer of self-healing unfolded. I finally found the bridge between my inner reality and the outer world. No more isolation - just an ongoing experience of deep connection and love.
Healing, to me, isn’t a destination - it’s a way of being. And that’s how I share it, through my remote healing immersions, Kundalini trainings, and self-healing courses: not as someone who’s “arrived,” but as someone who’s walked through disconnection and found her way home.
What’s the most surprising thing you’ve learned about your students?
The most surprising thing I’ve learned? How teachable healing really is. I used to think my perceptual abilities - sensing, seeing, shifting energy - were somehow locked inside me, something mysterious I couldn’t fully pass on. But over and over again, I see the opposite. People who never thought of themselves as healers, who doubted they could affect change (let alone from afar), learn to do exactly that.
We enter a shared field, I guide them in, I give language to what they sense, and they practice - that’s it. And it unfolds - faster than anyone expects. Students with no background in healing discover, within weeks, that they can feel trauma, tension, energy in others - and actually help release it. They’re astonished. And honestly, so am I, every single time.
The second surprise? How much people can heal themselves when given the right tools. That realization gave birth to The Art of Self-Healing - a journey inward for anyone ready to move beyond meditation as “relaxation” and step into healing as a living, practical path. Through journeys to meet the inner child, integrate fragmented parts of the self, and release ancestral patterns, what continually surprises me isn’t just that people heal - it’s how profoundly. Even though the course was only recently released, the feedback has been incredible. Students are sharing breakthroughs, subtle shifts, moments of clarity that are deeply moving to witness.
What are the biggest lies your industry tells itself?
The biggest lie is that oneness means sameness. That just because we are all souls - we live the same realities. So much of spiritual culture hides behind “love and light,” using it to gloss over inequality, privilege, and the very real differences that shape our lives. That’s not enlightenment. That’s bypassing - and it leaves so many people unseen.
As someone who is neurodivergent, queer, and an immigrant, I’ve known that invisibility too well.
I’ve sat in so many meditation circles - all smiling faces, incense, soft white clothes - where no one could even pronounce my name. And look around: the loudest voices in the industry still belong, mostly, to cis white men. Tell me - how is that spiritual?
It’s time to shift the paradigm. Those at the margins - the neurodivergent, the queer, those carrying the weight of indigenous injustice - hold some of the clearest spiritual medicine this world needs. And I do feel that shift coming. Slowly, quietly - but it’s coming.
What can you do? Be present. Notice. Be real. Seek out teachers and spaces that reflect lives different from your own - queer-led circles, neurodivergent perspectives, indigenous wisdom - and then simply… listen.
What is the story you hope people tell about you when you’re gone?
Honestly, I’m less interested in people telling stories about me. Stories fade, what matters to me is the experience people carry. If someone walks away with a deeper sense of themselves, a real moment of connection, or even just a small shift that opens something new inside them - and the knowing that by living from that place, they become healers in the world — that’s enough. That’s the legacy I’d hope to leave. Not a narrative, but a presence. A taste of stillness. A reminder of what we all are beneath the noise.
